原来这就是。。喜欢

不喜欢的人，可以容易地讲个笑话，随便地发个短信，

甚至，打去电话问对方有什么节目以便随时去参加。



喜欢的，却变成心里的死穴一个，动都不敢动，甚至，看到的时候，话都说不出来。



喜欢某个人，偏偏见到她，一句话没有。



看着旁边的朋友和她谈笑风生，心里又嫉妒又着急。



暗示或者表白心际，一句我爱你，永远不丢人。







如果我想你了

我会掏出手机

看看有没有你的短信



即使我知道

几率是那么的渺茫



如果我想你了

我会在手机上飞速的打下一连串的对你说的话

最后却始终没有按下发送的键

只是不想打扰你







如果我想你了

我会看我们的短信记录

不管是什么样的对话

始终有种甜蜜的感觉

因为在你面前

我好像总是长不大



如果我想你了

我会想

你是不是会想我呢？

哪怕

只有一秒钟的时间...



如果我想你了

我会听你推荐给我的音乐

细品歌词中的字字句句



如果我想你了

我会把思念换作节拍

让它在双手交辉中流露



如果我想你了

我会学着你的语气对自己说话

有的话很假





如果我想你了

我会哭

不会像以前那样给你电话给你短信

只会一个人躲在寝室偷着哭

然后

在你来电话的时候

假装放了静音 不接

之后平淡的发个短信回去

问你有事么



如果我想你了

其实没有如果

每天都很想你

电脑桌面是你

手机主题是你

Mp3相册是你

一切的一切都是你



我不打电话给你并不是我不关心你、只是不知说什么好、又怕你说烦 、打电话给你的不一定就一定很关心你··

i miss u!!! crazily missing u!! T__T

I MISSSSSS U! though u dont deserve it!=(

The annual PIDC cup has started about 2weeks ago!
It's not as fun as sport days back in india since there's no more opening cheer competition etc.
Our team spirit also lesser compared2 last yr!=(

Anyhowww,,, our spirit came back yesterday, during the most interesting event of sports day, Track and field!xD

Due to some sucks reason, i was there yesterday early morning....as a ...................

1500m Runner!!!

Can u believe it???? No for sure!

even myself couldnt believe why m i there on tht morning itself~ T_T Keep telling jane n all that i dun want to run! I felt more nervous when i saw the track. oh my goodness.. 3 and 3/4 rounds is way too much for me! =(

But still, im on the starting line after our Dynamite's star, Reagan won the males's 15oom. ^^

Group pic of 1500m's runner xD

I feel glad tht i managed2 complete it. Thanks 2 all my lovely frens who cheer for me!!! >

It was a fun day overall!

not to forget, everyone get sunburned after that~!T_T

My face especially nose is like burning !aiks. Looks like a red round tomato on the 'Orientation n Haloween nite' . no pictures for tht. My tanned face was super ugly =(

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Till then.

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Keep Rocking DYNAMTIEZZ~!

Oh yay! my dearest daddy n mummy are cuming over penang again this friday! xD

I felt so sorry n guilty for being so rude to them all this while! I m jz being pampered too much by them.T^T But seriously i love them so much! i miss them n i miss home!

As time flies, n they are getting older n older without my notice. Under thier excessice care, im still behave like a kid even though i m already 21, heading 22 soon! i couldnt drive, couldnt cook, couldnt recognise road, so blur with everything,.... without them im just Nothing!

I know, they will leave me one day! But of course not so soon. Because of me, they worked from day to night 365days, there's no 'holiday' for them. Their health is not as good as last time. Several diseases start knocking their door. They just dun have time to go for checkup. how sad! as a dentist-to-be daughther, i couldnt help out with a single thing, i feel so useless! =( What can i do, is just praying n still praying to the god Pls bless them more, not to earn lots of money,but just have a healthy body! how i wish i cn turn the clock faster, so tht i can graduate faster! Thus, they can stop working, n tht's the time for me to take care of them. My beloved god, pls fulfill my small wish.=)

你们。。。

和好朋友相见，真是很开心!
这么多年了，还担心会没话说，没想到时间并没有带走我们之间的友谊，
天南海北，谈得一发不可收拾。。。哈哈!!
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朋友们，我好想念你们哦!!!
想念我们一起疯颠的日子，
我好久没有痛痛快快的笑了!!
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这么多年了，我总是给不出你们离开的原因，
因为我也不知道答案。。。。
但，
我有后悔。。。
。
离开后，
再也没有一起沿着小路，说说笑笑去上课的情景，
再也没有不用担心午觉睡得多迟，大家也会等你吃晚餐，
再也没有上课总是坐在一起，叽叽喳喳说个不听，
再也没有一起开永远没有结论的会议，讨论了一整天，就只为了决定等下去哪里，
再也没有一起蹲在各自的门口，谈的天昏地暗，
再也没有到彼此的房里‘踢馆’，
再也没有天天的恶作剧，却不会伤感情，
再也没有一起蹲在走廊上，听她唱歌，
再也没有一起庆祝彼此的生日，
再也没有在房里一起飙歌，
再也没有一起去逛夜市，
再也没有人和我那么的有默契，总是一唱一和，
。。
很多很多的事，再也不会历史重演了!
很多时候， 做着同一件是，
但 人事已非。。。。
那种感觉是再也找不会了。
。
再也没有形影不离的你们。。。。。
我能不后悔吗?

幸福

世上只有妈妈好，有妈的孩子像个宝。。。。

这首童谣正正唱出了我的心声。。。 有妈妈真好!
那种幸福不是言语可以形容的， 被捧在手心里呵护。。妈妈我好爱你哦!
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只有亲人才会给予我无私的爱，
他们永远不会计较我的无理取闹，
总是包容我的呼呼喝喝。。
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真是身在福中不知福 的臭小孩!
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请让幸福一直，一直的围绕着我。。。

>.

真不明白为什么有一些人， 可以这么的 kia su!!!

妈的! 真的超级顶不顺!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 很想一巴掌给她送过去! <_<
平时借了我的东西几个月，从来哼都不哼一声。。 才借了她的书一下子，先是交代我要好好保管， 再来催三催四，语气又超没有礼貌! 去死吧! 你的烂臭东西， 送我都不要!

已经不是第一次忍你了， 不要再来惹我了!!!! 否则一定对你不客气!!!


去死吧!! 这么怕输， 真希望你淹死在你的书堆里!!!!!!!!!!!!!

考试

不得不感叹时间过得真快啊! 不知不觉在槟城已经半年了。。。 也到了最后一个posting。。。感觉上还是什么都不会，唉。。。
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又到了 考试的季节， 大家的精神又开始紧绷起来。。 这就是临时抱佛脚的后果吧!
唉， 没有去 yum cha 的日子还真是难过啊!
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好吧，最后3天了， 反正平时也没读书， 现在就给他好好的冲刺一下吧!
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加油!加油!!!

曾经的‘好朋友’

才發現原来在很短的时间内， 就可以从无所不谈的好朋友变成无话可说的陌生人。。。 多可悲啊!
曾经，是那么要好的朋友。。。 是你让我相信男女生也是可以成为知己的。。
总是有谈不完的话，
总是有诉不尽的心事，
我们一起分享喜欢的，讨厌的。。。
你让我开始喜欢上运动。。。
你让我有听不完的笑话。。。
我们总是那么的有默契。。。
。。
曾经我以为我们会是一辈子的好朋友，
你说过，
就算距离再远，
就算多久没见面，
都不是问题。。。。
因为 我们是真正的朋友!!!
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我相信了 !
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但，我才发现。。。或许我们并不是那么的要好?
无情的时间把我们的友情彻彻底底的冲淡了。。。。。
。。。曾经试着想挽回， 但我真的累了。。。

所以， 就这样算了吧!
或许我们从未是真正的好朋友。。。。

无论如何，我感谢你陪我一起走过的日子!
在我最伤心难过的时候，是你陪我聊天聊通宵。。。
在我闷得发慌的时候， 陪我打机。。
谢谢你!!
。。
就算这是我们都回不去的从前。。
但偶尔在夜深人静的时候， 还是会偷偷流泪。。
想念你这个曾经的好朋友!

That's HOLIDAY!!!

It's holiday !!! YUHOOOOOOO~!!! YAYYYYY~!!!!! hahaha..sowee i m jz too excited!!! coz Wednesday is always a boring day in college!

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Yesterday i skipped morning class due to insomnia the night before. n General Medicine posting is cancelled. Oh gawd, i love u!! muacks!! So, hv been sleeping for the whole day.XD...until i receive Reagan's call. As usual, he wants to go cheong k!! Haiz...he will never bored of sing k..>.<

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But it ended up i organise a so called ' Yam Cha Team'. xD

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N here v go!! Li Herng wanted chinese tea. So v went Raja Uda. N it's so shit that there's no night life in Butteroworth. Went Old Town, Who's Bryan, 90's n watever.... all said kitchen last order n it's just 11.30pm. The night is still young wei! T^T Ends up v had our yam cha session in New Town Kopitiam. The food sucksssss but what to do?? there's only them open 24 hours.

Anyway, the whole thing was fun. V chatted n as usual teasing stephanie is our favourite! xD im sorry steph but jz couldnt help myself teasing u! u r too cute dy! ^^ .

After that, we decided to have a walk in Pantai Bersih. n Shit happens again!!! The nice pantai that li herng used to go 10 years ago is already a road now! How SAD!!! went back home disappointedly. T^T I missed walking at beach... must find out any beach in butterworth o.O.

I want this.............!!!

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or perhaps....

this!

Reached home about 1am. N it's just the nice time to watch a movie. We watched <美丽密令> in hor yan's room! It was good At first........ but after all v found it quite lame n everyone was quite sleepy dy, thus we start complaining... I couldnt keep my eye open evn though lu yi is very yeng.

Love him!! xD

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Only able to get into bed around 4am. ! But my sweet dreams doesnt goes on. Woke up by the sei li herng's phone call early in the morning!!!!!! @.@ (1oam not to say very early lar but !!! im so damn sleepy...T^T)

So went for dim sum. Luckily it's not bad ,吃得很满足...! ^^

And there's start my P.I.G life.

SLEEP N SLEEP N SLEEP for whole day. n not to forget EAT. Enjoyed the rojak, ais kacang, cendol etc...... so so much! xD

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i feel sleepyyy again.! T_T

money!

shopping is always my favourite!

But i feel bad when spending money!! money is always not enuf. Coz clothes in my cupboard, shoes, bags r always not enuf for me! T^T

Maybe i should get a RICH bf !! Any calon for me?? XD

i need MONEY! $$$

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Emoing in the room.. whenever my economy merosot! Sigh..

sick T^T

Except for sui, i couldnt get a more accurate word to describe myself.

Seriously need to visit temple as soon as possible! lol. im serious. The illness i had recently plus the burping for almsot 2 months made me became more n more superstitious. I tend to change to feng shui in my room etc. oops.! but at least i tried to change the hard situation im having now.

Still couldnt figure out the reason y m i so weak ever since i came penang! my immune system is totally suck! m i so old tht i will get sick so easily or wat?? hmm...

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now i duwan any single thing but just my health! God pls, RETURN my health but dun take away my wealth. :P okay not joking. Duwan to get sick anymore ! im really suffer with it more than enough dy! Abandoned my studies Alots...n i really need to catch up from now!

kayz..chaoss..i need rest! ^^

再见 !

你的世界里没有我， 但我那小小的世界里却只看见你。。。。
因为你， 我错过了许多身边美好的事物。。。
却不曾埋怨你。。
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这么多年了，
我想。。 你也是时候搬家了!!
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虽然心很痛， 很不舍， 但终究还是要说。。。

再见了!!!

我不会再想你了。。。。

Prosthodontic! i hate u!

Oh i hate posting in prostho!!!! Taking impression really driving me mad today!!

Feels so sorry to Steph,! u r so kind for not blaming me !! SORAAY~~! i owed u a meal ! :)
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AH SHIT!! hopes everything goes well tomorrow! PLELISSSSS god! Muz at least get my maxillary impression by tomorrow!
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im so desperately want to Leave prostho. Cant wait to go2 Community. Owh, how m i goin2 pass this freaking week! GOD BLESS ME!! XD

*juz realise that i will only blog when i face difficulties. This makes my blog so down. :( *
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This is BAD!
will bring more mercy here soon! ^^

Happy mummy's Day!

woot... Love u always The Best mummy in the world!!!!

:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !

Happy happy birthday to my dear Daddy.

可能因为成长背景的原因。。 不像其他家庭， 我们家一向都没有庆祝父亲节，母亲节。。。。。或生日的习惯。。

又或则是独生女， 没有兄弟姐妹可以讨论。。。 所以我从小都不知道如何向父母。或任何人表现对他们的爱。。 。 所以我往往会以顶嘴的方式来掩饰自己的爱。

Anyway, still wish daddy have great blast!

Hope he can be healthy always. Muz control ur hypertension, diabetes etc.

Love u ~!

生日快乐 !

New start in PENANG!

Oh well, i think i should jz start blogging instead of sharing my feelings, opinion or whatsoever in Facebook! uhemm, coz there's so called stalkers appeared in fb n stalking PIDC's students' profile! oh, scary! gv me more reasons 2 miss india! Lolx.

okay, officially a III BDS student now.
Not a happy thing though. Means more clinical works, more stress, more posting, more assignments! ish! I hate GH posting. Dun think i will ever like to squash myself in the pathetic hospital ! the place that will kill me anytime! hateeeee there!!!! hv to bare for 1 more year..Duhhh. T^T
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But...
BUT..
i just simply love Conservative Dentistry posting! ahaha.. not to say enjoyed doing cavity, but love the lecturer, Dr.Kalyan. After suffering 2 years in india, finally v hv a GOOD lecturer! oh, he's such a nice person.! Feels so relax to post there compare to my current posting! T.T no more teatime break, early lunch for 2 weeks! sobzzzzz... i miss conss~~ :(
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Everything is considered fine here. Ermm, issit? though quite some bad things happened, but i overcame it. Phewww, i found my ods maxi cast. + Eveything went smooth 2day during oral patho class . Okay, God pls continue blessing me.. *thanks*
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erm, whatelse? ah..have a great time wv parents n uncle's family last weekend. Enjoyed shopping ! n spent quite big amount of $$. oh no, im nt going 2 be a shophaholic or ' Sai ga chin' (in hakka) lol.
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hate myself for couldnt stop spending money! *slapping myself* T.T n hate myself for being so 执着。。
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我以为已经把爱情还给你了。。
怎知当你真的放手时，
我却不知道该如何骄傲的走开。。。。

OMG!! im going to go crazy really soon!

I need a place, a quite place perhaps i should go to sea...to cry out really really loud. But i dont want anyone to hear it. I can never show my weakness in front of ppl. That's y i need to act as im tough all the time. It's tiring. I gt lots of complaints, lots of 委屈, but i dunno how to make them to words n tell others.... So, the only thing i can do is cry under my comforter. Useless u, koh peoy shiam!

I hate, I hate lots of things... i jz want to leave this place. Jz bring me bec to india or whatever BUT jz not here pls!!! i wonder y after so many years staying out myself, i still nt used to here!
i think i jz need sometime to get used to EVERYTHING here. N u .....
....
I hate u so so soooooooo much !!! How can u jz leave me lk this?? without saying Goodbye, without a word....u jz leave me Alone ! I MISS U~!! i jz want to tell u that I MISS U!!! but i will never never hv this chance! how can u treat me like this ? i still gt lots of things hvn tell u..i hvn finish my story...u said u will always be my side, listen to my complain, my story, i can always be myself in front of u.. cry or laugh as i like! u din keep ur promise.!!!!!! Val, where r u now? is tht the way u treat fren? T.T
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What should i do now? if u r here , i would knw what to do. But fine, maybe it's time to be independent. dont worry, i will be tough!
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miss u always..... pls always miss me in ur place. :)

oh my kadawalei~!!!

刚刚看完 ah bu 带回来的 <花木兰> 天啊!!!!! 虽说有我很爱的赵薇和陈坤， 但那部戏， 实在不值得推荐!~ >。<

又长有闷!! T。T

看得头很痛。。唉，又浪费了一天! :(

心

终于考完MODEL’s theory 了， 松了一口气! !! 但最重要的FINAL 还在后头。。

心情又开始很烦躁。。 忙了一整天， 已经12 点了， 还在考虑着明天要不要去考 PATHO‘S考PRACTICAL~!!!

或许我根本不是为考试而烦， 。。。

虽然已经两年了， 但我却不时的问自己， 来了印度我真的开心吗??! 每次和朋友们说说笑笑时， 我是真的开心而打从心里笑吗?? 或许是吧?! 我迷惑了。。 年纪越大，发现我越来越不懂要怎样让自己开心。。 是我的问题吗?? 还是因为身边的人已不同???

总爱望着天空， 想念远方的你们~!

因为有你们，我懂得微笑，微笑变成一种习惯。我单纯的以为有一群好朋友在身边， 一起吃饭， 一起讲废话， 一起上课， 一起skip class， 一起唱歌，一起胡闹，一切一切都是理所当然的~! 难道不是吗?? 也许我太天真了， 别人没有必要对你好， 人不是那么幸运， 一直都可以被身边的朋友疼着，宠着。。。。。

你以为你是谁阿??!! 是时候长大了!! ><

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或许我身边 还是有许多这样的朋友， 是因为自己总是在钻牛角尖， 而略了身边美好的一切。。

是时候， 尝试用。。。。。。

一个叫 " 心" 的东西去感受眼前的一切。。。

不可以再为了回不去的过去，而蒙蔽了眼前的美好。。。。。。。。:)

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对不起现在一直陪在我身边的朋友们， 你们知道你们是谁，。。。。我也知道你们对我的好。.

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* 爱你们*

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哭出来。。真的舒服很多。。。。 或许我只是需要一些发泄。。。现在没事了~!xD

Happy 2010~! ^^

Happy new year evelione~!:)

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Did u enjoy ur new year eve?? For me, i would say i had a special one. Not the normal countdown i had in msia for the past 20 years. \

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Let's start the day from the dinner. Had a delicious steamboat with the 8 ppl, reagan, the organizer!, andrew, the assistant, and the rest nicholas, kah chit, wye luun, steph, khai ling n jane! :) It's my 4th steamboat within these few months, still i m loving Tom Yam soo sooo muchiee~!!^^

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Had a nice chat with everyone, talking about their Goa's trip, ghost stories....... N as usual, teasing me n my nice hometown, dont understand y ppl here, esp the guys like to link sea turtle with kelantan. adui..... Fine, in case u guys forget again, i repeat here, Sea Turtle is famous in Terrenganu but not kelantan~!!lolx. Besides, manage to hv revenge by teasing the kk's san dong ren. Dont really remember wat we talk for 3 hours +. o.o oh, nt to forget, we had JET's Magic show!!!! it was awesome!!!! Big clap to him~!! xD

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Anyway, had countdown wv others at 12.00am. Wuhooo~!! still couldnt really believe that it's already 2010! time flies huh~! After the countdown, went li herng's room to have some alcohol to celebrate the coming of NEW YEAR!!! The guys danced n they get very high, Reagan was the funniest, he acted so abnormal. Just not that the normal guy we knw. Ermmm, weird?? he acted like some pub's DJ, rapping, shaking his body, his ass perhaps? haha, me n rachel just cant help ourselves to stop laughing, no hard feeling k? Not to forget, kah chit sang ' bei pan'. Still as nice as normal...wuhooooooooo~!! our idol ~!xD

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After that, went back to have bath. Li herng n ming came n ask us to go Nigel's room for the alcohol party. SO regret that i went~!! though it's all our batchmates, but me n rachel just cant get into them. And the worst part is the stupid Da bian keep dragging me to dance with him. O.M.G! im so helplesss that time, feel like kicking him..:P We left there within 15 mins, haha..sorry people, we didnt mean to sou heng~!! :(

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The next part was the interesting 1. Found sth interesting, shouldn't say it's interesting, wat i can say is the truth is alwasy cruel~~haiz... sometimes knowing the fact might not be a good thing, Maybe im not open minded enough to accept some truth. Well, it's nth to do with me~! Just forget about it.

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LOL

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Went li herng's room again around 3 to have some talk. I claimed that i knw bout the fortune thingy. n help the guys to do some fortune telling. Haha, so naive of them to trust me. But about the future wife n husband thing is real one. Just that i dint knw guys 1 should be opposite to girls. So sorry kah chit,!! ahahha, but at least u hv yong yi's accompany for 1 night ma. :P:P crapping around till 4 sth n every1 ws really sleepy.

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That's how i celebrated my last new year eve in india~! It's not that boring as i expect. thanks everyone who make me smile throughout the year~!!! *hugsss* love u guys~!!

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Hope to have a great year ahead, n the most important thing is pass my second year n get back to penang~!! God bless me. :)

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i will study hard too, from now................